Visions Day.

I have decided that I am going to have a visions day. Even though I am typically very emotionally and mentally controlled (For those few of you who think that I get truly angry very easily, you would be wrong. When I get "angry", I am actually laughing on the inside and having great fun watching you go into a little huffy puffy attack. I don't mean to make anyone feel bad, I just find it amusing...), today was not and still is not one of those days.

Due to the fact that I am so mentally and emotionally unstable, I have had almost three "panic attacks" today, have been severely pissed off (at no one in particular) throughout different times of the day, I have decided that I will not be playing with the horses. Granted, I still have to take care of them, but it is not quite the same as "play". When I play with any of them, I usually play around with some challenges that they're having, then move on and teach them a few new things when they get it. If I do not respond at the exact right moment... Well, different things happen for the different horses. Hope might go RBE, but will most likely just see no point in playing with you anymore. Cherish might freeze up and go inside of herself, or she will explode with full force and physically leave. With Finale, she will either go LBE and push you around with her head and be dominant, or go RBI and go inside of herself. All of our horses can go to more than one Horsenality- Hope being innately RBE & learned LBI, Finale being innately LBE & learned RBI, and Cherish being innately RBI & able to flip to any of the other three Horsenalities with different severities depending upon how you respond. It gives me a good challenge and the ability to play with all three Horsenalities at different times (whether I really wanted to or not).

Basically, today is my "inspire myself" day. I am going to write, draw, and brainstorm goals, dreams, and visions I have for myself, both for the next couple of months and the next thirty years. I will also be going up with some ideas for organization and how to reach these goals, or even job prospects... (Yes, the school board wants you to know what you're going to do for the rest of your life by the time you're fourteen. I know, crazy.) I am not sure what this day will bring, but I have been wanting to sit down and have it for a while.

I hope that all of you take some time within the next couple of weeks to inspire yourself, to surprise yourself, and to come up with dreams that you didn't realize you still had. Don't be afraid to find yourself, you're somewhere, even if you're not inside of you anymore. I may write some more concepts down on here later, but no telling what my "schedule" will be. Have a laugh- because I have none, yet still set one up for myself.